3-2-2007

Feeling Much More On Top of things today. Getting paid certainly helped. Even though there is the inevitable "brokeness" after paying my bills, at least they are Paid!!!

Spent some time with an old friend who was also feeling down last evening. I made dinner, we watched the Simpsons and My Name is Earl and then let each other vent our fears and problems. Then we spent time telling each other how much we appreciated each other being in the world, and how much we'd be missed if we weren't around. All in all, it was a nice big mutual dose of pro-active suicide prevention therapy. *smiles* (Not that either of us had gotten quite THAT down)

I know there are those that say that you have Only Yourself to count on. But when I try to isolate myself and stick it out Alone, the world seems too big and scary. Friends are important to me, they can count on me, and I count on them. I don't think that is a weakness--I think it is a strength.

Besides, if you keep your pond so small that you are the only one making ripples--it will eventually just Dry Up.

I take comfort in knowing that there is someone splashing around not to far away--maybe even struggling from time to time just like me--even if their waves rock my boat a little.

It reminds me I'm not alone in this Huge --sometimes Overwhelming--Pond of Life.