7-26-07 No Monkey Punching

This was my dream:

I was walking with you and talking. I think we had lunch. I was happy to be with you. Then you took me to a fancy health club. You said you wanted me to try something. It was your favorite game.

We went into a large room with a swimming pool and lots of plants everywhere. It had really high ceilings with balconies that looked down over the pool. We got into the pool together and I noticed there were little beings in the pool with us. They were chimpanzees---all wrapped up in white latex bondage gear---covered head to toe. They were swimming around clumsily and blindly in the water. The point of the game, you told me, was simply to knock them out. As soon as they stopped moving, attendants dressed in white would remove the bodies from the pool until they were gone.

I tried it...I took all the frustration that I had in my life and punched one of those mummy-wrapped monkeys so fucking hard that it hit the wall of the pool. For a moment it felt cool----I felt powerful. Then, I saw the reaction of the poor creature. The muffled cry and the body going limp. I felt sick to my stomach. I got out of the pool and dried off and watched you finish the rest of them off from the balcony.

You were so engrossed in your sport, you never even noticed I was gone.



I had this dream on December 18th, 2005.

All was revealed to me then--I just didn't want to see.

You punch your *Energy* into vulnerable women's lives all over the world. It makes you feel powerful. You can stay removed because you keep them wrapped up tight.

This is really what you end up teaching in the end.





*Dries hair with a nice fluffy pink towel up on the Balcony*