Bittersweet Lessons

---A Love Poem---

I don't need a Shining Perfect Hero

To swoop down and Rescue me.

I have heard Tales of Daring and Adventure

And Bravado Beyond Belief...

Before.

And it just got me Chasing Dragons

Inside my own head.

I've never been Queen, nor princess.

Not for longer than a scene.

I can't Always Create my Reality

To live up to my Dreams

So Now...

I want a Man who will Take my Hand,

And walk peacefully, serene.

But I am so far from Perfection's Door

How could I ever Expect More...

Than a Man who Does His Best Each Day

And in Doing So, Shows me the Way.

Lyrics

 Longer Lashes...



I have floated high above you
Basking in adoring praise
I have stood right here beside you in so many ways

Now I hold to you the power
Do exactly as you please
Standing there so strong above me I fall to my knees.

Tethered to that black seduction, on a line of amethyst...Leather lover, my salvation is drowning in your amber kiss....I only wish...for

Longer lashes, loving lashes, falling down on me like rain.

Longer lashes, loving lashes,
you make me feel again.

Take me gently, bind me tightly as I'm calling out your name.
Shove me harder to excite me, it's our little game.

If you show me tender mercy, I will only beg for more.
Now I know you won't desert me right down to my core...

I can taste that sweet-sick place where flesh and lust and maggots feed.
Don't you waste it with your haste now, slowly lover, make me bleed...cause all I need...is

Longer lashes, loving lashes, falling down on me like rain.

Longer lashes, loving lashes,
you make me feel again.

Tethered to that black seduction, on a line of amethyst...Leather lover, my salvation is drowning in your amber kiss...

I can taste that sweet-sick place where flesh and lust and maggots feed.
Don't you waste it with your haste now, slowly lover, make me bleed..
.cause all I need..

A song by Linda Ophoenix  Copyright 1996

Grateful

Just sitting here, warm from the cold, my hunger fed and my loved ones safe and happy around me....I was Overcome with Gratefulness.

I let it *Flow* through me and sent it out as a prayer and a post to the world. First I typed out a message on Facebook, then I enjoyed moment of deep breathing that floated like a prayer to the heavens of my mind.

*Peace* to the World

I am So Blessed

October Snow

I haven't written in here since August. I am spurred on by the sudden prolific surge of blogging of my (ex) sister-in-law. It's some really good stuff and it inspired me to put words to page.

Not that I have been much. Tending the garden, as it were. As soon as school started for Elliot I we have been hitting the books right as he gets home. And I sit with him and help him if he needs it---and check all his work that he does alone. Nothing is going to get by me this year---no chance for lying or not doing assignments. I am Nazi-Mom when it comes to schoolwork! Three years of nearly failing or actually failing from procrastination and lying about homework Over! But I had some good news---his French teacher called saying he has the highest grades he's ever had with her! So it is working. And he is starting to feel the pride of doing well---I can see it in his eyes and carriage. He was sick for two days, and he emailed his teachers and got all his assignments and was caught up by the time he went back to school. That was Awesome. I would have stressed him out to the max before. So that is very good. But it is a lot of work to keep on him about it.

Aric is doing well in Therapy, I guess. I have had to step back from visiting him at MAC because they stress me out. I really don't believe in ABA therapy and it is hard for me to see him there. I would like to see him in the Sonrise program--but it is very Parent Intensive---meaning it would all be up to ME. Tom doesn't really agree with their program, and is happy with MAC. So I am just letting go and letting it be.

In fact, that is kind of my meditation and prayer lately. And it seems to be working. I have had a lot of stressful situations come up over the past year and instead of Reacting or worse yet, Overreacting, and making a bad situation Worse, I have learned to chill a lot more. Just take that deep breath and *wait* for a bit before Panicking and doing something I will just regret later.

Oh my, more Wisdom? I guess that means I am getting older. *sigh*

And it is snowing in October.

*Bright Blessings* to E/everyone

My New Bathroom Decor!!!

Well, the final coat of "Haunting Melody" deep burgundy paint finally got applied to my bathroom walls and ceiling. It looks really cool against the white with black flower motif. I am a happy woman! And it will be Glorious to take long relaxing baths in my beautiful new bathroom!!

Thanks L & L (and to my friends Don and Gordy who did the painting)

*Bright Blessings*

Linda

John Hughes 1950-2009

John Hughes, who directed my favorite movie of all time "Some Kind Of Wonderful" died today of a heart attack while he was out walking. Known for his teen movies of the 80's he also did such greats as the Vacation movies with Chevy Chase and "Planes, Trains and Automobiles" with Steve Martin and John Candy.

He didn't do much of anything in the business in many years. But as far as I am concerned, he could have made the movie I love and none others and he would have been a genius in my mind.

"Some Kind of Wonderful" contains the Best First Kiss scene EVER! Very Hot!!! And the soundtrack is incredible. I took it to Europe with me in '88--so it is always linked with good memories in my mind.

Rest in Peace, John Hughes. You did well.

*Peace and Blessings*

Linda