*Flow*

I am setting my sights on my life Flowing again like a Peaceful River.

I know it did Before....I have Read my own Words as Testimony.

The ZipCar thing seems to be working out so far....and it gets me out seeing the City, which is something I have always enjoyed from a "street level" eye view.....instead of being cushioned in my car all the time, radio and air on....buffered from the Real World and it's Precious People.

On the bus, I see things and people that incite my Creativity.  Things that Enlarge my world....not keep it in the same little Isolated Bubble.

Things can Return to a Good State in my Life....

My Life will *Flow* Once More.

Soon.

2-7-2007

I used to keep my gooey insides displayed for everyone to see. I was an open wound, a raw nerve --exposed to whatever or whoever I came in contact with. When abrasive contact caused me pain, I blamed the outside source. I never thought of looking inward. Of my responsibilty to gather my gooiness together and put it behind a protective case.

It took giving myself completely--and being smashed against the rocks--to realize that... A. I needed to protect myself and...B. I was not so gooey when it came right down to it.

Because I didn't come undone when my dreams were broken. I didn't spill like liquid all over the floor---I bounced back like Jello *smiles*. I regrouped, made a new plan, protected myself a little better this time and moved on.

I will never be Rock. I don't want to be.

I don't want to be sticky and gooey either. I want to be a soft, sweet substance on the inside--but something with integrity...

Like strawberry jello.

Zippedity-do-da

So.....This is my new mode of transportation.   I decided that with the amount I was spending on a car loan on a depreciating vehichle, the added insurance after my accident, and gas....I should try using a car just when I really Need it for a while and seeing if I can save a little cash.

I guess I am kind of stuck in the city for a while yet...so the bus is available for most things.   I have one standing appointment a week....and beside that, I would drive it just for grocery shopping and  fun once in a while.

But my old car loan is paid off....which reduces my debt significantly.   When my credit cards are paid off in about 24 months or so...I will be debt free.

We will see how it works.    I am glad I have the Freedom to try something Alternative....without having to worry about what people think or say.

If it doesn't work, I change the plan.

*smiles*